Wrote to my boss, to ask if i could get one more lecture for myself. Animal physiology, i know it is hard and that i am struggling to reach the level in order to teach. But im sure i could make the lecture better than it is now, so that the students would have better knowledge of general animal physiology than what they currently get.
i wrote to find out when danceclub is going to start and to the local folkloreclub and also to some dancelessons to see, if it would be possible for me to participate. I am terrified of going alone.. im terrified of not knowing how to dance well, of the others ideas over me, of nobody wanting to dance with me... But lets face it- I love to dance and i want to dance... even if i look like i do and even if nobody want to dance with me ... i still love to dance...
And i will call tomorrow to the Institute of Geology and talk with Olle to make an appointment. I want to look into the field of paleontology, if it will offer me more joy than what im currently doing. I have the feeling, that i want to learn more of paleontology. Maybe i will achieve even a position there... well at first just to help somebody out to do the dirty work or whatever... i just want to be there ... It will not be easy. But i know, that i need to do this, if i want any change in my life.
The earliest fossil bat (Icaronycteris)
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